I know you have been explaining a lot why you have not written lately, but I personally love the evolution I am witnessing of you and your craft. I think we all take for granted the need to lie dormant to regroup and analyze and reflect and understand ourselves without the pressure of any external forces making us feel we are not showing up for others how we need to be.
It has never been about them. This is your journey, your process and we all are just privileged to witness it in whatever way we are doing so and that goes for us all.
I express why I take breaks because in 2023, I barely gave myself time to rest. If I wasn’t working or spending time with my family, I was painting. During this time I was only painting but my lack of self care left me horribly burnt out a week before Christmas. I told myself that I would be better this year and I have been. I value my rest + sleep because sometimes my active mind and chronic insomnia won’t let me be.
Painting + writing is therapeutic and I’m blessed to be able to do both. Yes, I want visibility because I have a business but I don’t concern myself about the other person.I wish a mf would put pressure on me to show up for them. I do this because I love what I do!
I don’t owe anyone a reason for why I haven’t painted or written lately, but simply making a comment that I’m taking time for me. It’s very easy to let time slip away from us that we need to remind ourselves (and maybe others) to just chill sometimes. When there’s too much noise + chatter, I filter and press mute if needed. We gotta learn to go radio silent and be by ourselves sometimes.
Thank you for being here to witness my journey. It’s been wonderful and I’m just getting started!
As I'm laying here thinking about censoring what I wrote last night. I seem angry. I am angry.
Censor nothing.
I know you have been explaining a lot why you have not written lately, but I personally love the evolution I am witnessing of you and your craft. I think we all take for granted the need to lie dormant to regroup and analyze and reflect and understand ourselves without the pressure of any external forces making us feel we are not showing up for others how we need to be.
It has never been about them. This is your journey, your process and we all are just privileged to witness it in whatever way we are doing so and that goes for us all.
Go ahead Alex B
I express why I take breaks because in 2023, I barely gave myself time to rest. If I wasn’t working or spending time with my family, I was painting. During this time I was only painting but my lack of self care left me horribly burnt out a week before Christmas. I told myself that I would be better this year and I have been. I value my rest + sleep because sometimes my active mind and chronic insomnia won’t let me be.
Painting + writing is therapeutic and I’m blessed to be able to do both. Yes, I want visibility because I have a business but I don’t concern myself about the other person.I wish a mf would put pressure on me to show up for them. I do this because I love what I do!
I don’t owe anyone a reason for why I haven’t painted or written lately, but simply making a comment that I’m taking time for me. It’s very easy to let time slip away from us that we need to remind ourselves (and maybe others) to just chill sometimes. When there’s too much noise + chatter, I filter and press mute if needed. We gotta learn to go radio silent and be by ourselves sometimes.
Thank you for being here to witness my journey. It’s been wonderful and I’m just getting started!