I might be the problem, pt. 2...
Microfiction.
Detroit - Wednesday, 3:33am…day seven. Another dream interrupted, right before the strange + unusual made sense. I flutter my eyes open and stare at the darkness above me. Mornings like this are unexplained and I don’t beg my subconscious to drag me back into my dreams. Sleep is a gifted time and my mind + heart agree to softly be in sync. When the internal + external noise doesn’t disturb my sound peace.
But now I lie awake whispering my thoughts into the atmosphere.
I’m the misunderstood menace, drastic + diabolical. No longer hiding within the shadows, I step into the amber glow of flickering streetlights and neon liquor store signs. Come find me.
My tattooed skin doesn’t hide nor lie about who I am and where I’ve been. Just as my heart loves + aches, it carries weaponized words that don’t misfire to my lips. The friendly foe that dims the light of my faithful friends. I’m dangerous.
What happens when I destroy the delusion + denial? I set myself free. The version I carelessly misjudge + mishandle.
Truth in my intrusive thoughts.
The inspiration…
This story is a continuation from “I might be the problem…”. A reflection of learning ourselves, being accountable for our actions + responsible for creating our own happiness.
I might be the problem...
Am I a menace seeking salvation? I'm not living in Hell, but I got gas money to get me there.
Peace,
Alex B
As I'm laying here thinking about censoring what I wrote last night. I seem angry. I am angry.
I know you have been explaining a lot why you have not written lately, but I personally love the evolution I am witnessing of you and your craft. I think we all take for granted the need to lie dormant to regroup and analyze and reflect and understand ourselves without the pressure of any external forces making us feel we are not showing up for others how we need to be.
It has never been about them. This is your journey, your process and we all are just privileged to witness it in whatever way we are doing so and that goes for us all.
Go ahead Alex B